So... here we are. It's a new year. I keep thinking about promises that I have made myself over the years. Resolutions. Hmmm. In thinking on this over the past few days I can honestly say that my success rate in achieving anything I have wanted to in the New Year's resolution department has been about 2%. I have been thinking a lot about change recently due to some unforeseen events. My life at this point has taken a new direction that I cannot say I was ready for in anyway.
I lost my mom. I truly, literally lost her. One day, we were talking and laughing together. The next I watched her get put in an ambulance. A few hours later she was gone from us.
Even at 34 years old, I am having trouble processing this. All of the psychobabble I have studied has in no way helped me deal with this loss. I have simply focused on my children and my husband. My dad and my brother. Worried over and over about them. And about her. It has been such a strange time in my life. For the most part, people have been so nice. So sweet. So sympathetic. It's very nice. And it reminds me again.
So I am still learning how to do this. And have decided to start keeping track of my feelings. Here. Let's see if this one sticks.
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